Trying to Change the Balance

Inside of me I've always want to change things when I think it could have been better or even when things should have a new ending. I don't want a normal story where people just live happily ever after because they don't exist and even if they do, you play the part of the bad guy in someone else's story. I don't mind playing the bag guy as long s things come out how they should the way I see it. I'm forcing things to happen and I know I shouldn't try to change these kind of things but I just want to give a little push for some people.

There are always those shy people or those people that try to be mean so that they can protect them self or even the lone wolf type. I guess I can't help but want to do something about it because I see a part of myself in them. The same as parents wanting to give their children what they couldn't have, I want those children to be inspired by that in some ways but not completely because I also want them to feel as if there's no line that separate us.

I don't just push myself into a person rather I wait for them to open up to me, we all live in our own world we choose to open or close our world to the bigger world outside of us. I feel that if I pushed myself into someone else's life then they'd want to give less and we have to give more. But for me waiting for them to open up to me, they become easier to understanding by their actions and their words. Some people have too much of something inside of them so it must be taken away and there are those who do not have this thing so we must give it to them.

I remember meeting this very shy girl who did not know how to play a game, even though it took a long time to teach her how to play I learned something as well, take time to break things down into little steps, take it one step at a time. No need to rush, we've got time so take it slowly, walk your own pace and eventually you'll catch up. I also learned that if you think too much about things, you won't understand it in the end, many things in this world are very simple, it's just the way you look at. The hardest question has the simplest answers. But wanting to change things, they've become like my experiment of understanding more, understanding everything that i wanted to.

It's said when parents watch as their kids are ready to leave the nest, it's painful, it's not like giving your favorite toy away because a toy has no feelings. It's rather painful, sad, lonely and worrying about how things will turn out. I remember this when this boy, he acted like my little brother and had to leave, even though for awhile, not being able to see him, I couldn't stop worrying what could be happening to him. It was sad and lonely being left all alone just wondering and waiting for this person to call out and say I'm home.

A person I wanted to change, did change but I've forgotten about what would happen after, I've known this person well enough. I did get this person to soften their heart but then when I'm watching far away it's different again. It was something I want to do for this person to show that their not alone but in the end they've become worst in way because I'm not the only one. No matter who it is, your friend, your family they can all betray you, start things about you that would change anther person's heart. In the fairy tale everyone falls for the lies and only one knows the truth, we live the same way where everyone falls for it because they think that's how they should react to all of this, we no longer how a mind of our own. Being manipulated by others but who?

Did you ever try changing the balance or did you destroy it?